Sally Cocaine™

[1]
It's about quarter past eight and I'm waiting on the corner where you said we would meet.
Well, it's about three hours later and I'm still standing in the rain.
But its alright you forgot, because my hair needed washing anyway.
It's alright, I'm completely over it.
You must have just forgot it was tonight or maybe your grandma's ill or something, you feel sick again, got done in by a gang of angry guys or maybe you're just a fucker.

[2]
See when you're mad, you don't miss people.
So if you stay mad, it's like you never knew them at all.
That way you don't feel like shit when they leave you.

[3]
I wish you would confide in me and tell me all your secrets,
knowing I won't breathe a word to anyone.
I want to be the someone that you come running to
when your world has turned dark and you feel like
there is no one left who cares. I can be the one to show you the light.

[4]
It's amazing the look in your eyes,
Like you could save me,
But you won't even try.

[5]
I'm scared.
I'm scared that I'm not going to be okay.
That maybe it's not going to work out in the end.
Maybe that's giving up hope but maybe it's thinking logically.
I've had too much time alone to think about this.

[6]
don't write pretty things. this is ugly,
this is pain, this is beautiful.
this is how i feel, unedited and uncut.
today i hurt, and tomorrow i hope.
this isn't a trend, this is me, writing to save.
its all i have left now

[7]
Where can I go when I want you around, but I can't stand to be around you?

[8]
You told me I wasn't what I thought I was
You told me you would have wanted me but you just can't help it.
There's something missing.
Something I'll never have.
Why do you talk to me then?

[9]
And I'm scared i'm going to walk out of this room without you ever realizing how much you really truly mean to me.
Maybe I'm over you,
Maybe I've moved on,
Maybe I like someone else,
But maybe i'm a perfectly good liar.
If you're willing to chase me, I promise, I'll run slow.

[10]
Maybe I dont do sex as good as her and maybe I dont have as many contacts as she does.
But I'll bet you she hasn't gone through what I have.
I'll bet she has never sat down on her stairs and just cried, cried her heart out because the world was caving in and she just couldn't take it anymore.